There are many sites that discuss autism. Some from the perspective of autistic parents, some from the perspectives of autistics, others by professionals who claim to be experts. But I question whether anyone really knows what it means to be autistic. I am autistic, and I can’t claim to know. Who would I be, if I could have been all else that I am, but not be autistic? What traits would I lose, and what would I gain? Would I be better at specific tasks? Would I be better at relationships? Would I be better at life? Would I be happier?
Or perhaps the things that I would miss would more than offset what I might gain. Would I still be wide-eyed and full of wonder? Woul I still have a heart that wanted nothing more than to love? Would I still have eyes that see the best in people. Wish to be honest, loyal, and understanding? Would I value the same things? Would I have the same principles?
I can go down the list of challenges of autists. I can identify with most all of them. Certainly there have been challenges in my life that I have had to work hard to overcome. But would I have it any other way? Would I choose not to be all of what I am, autistic and all? I don’t think so. Because who I am is me. Autism is part of me. I choose to be happy with being autistic, because I choose to be happy being me.